Thursday, January 31, 2008

Gottahaveit #1: Good old Dewalt


I want this particular Dewalt set very badly. It is powerful. It is cordless. It screws and it cuts and it is bright bright yellow. I need it for when I build the next section of the theatre, but I haven't scraped up the money to purchase it yet.

My technical director a few years back had a Dewalt cordless drill and I had a Mikita. He was always finished building a platform a solid 2 minutes before I was and he never broke a sweat doing it.

My cheap black and decker broke about 3 months ago and I have since needed it about 5 times. When you don't have what you need and you must use something as a cheap replacement it makes you want the very best, top of the line model even more!

You will be mine Dewalt cordless saw and drill! Oh yes! You will be mine!

Mona... Lisa...



I am sooooo proud of my niece Emma!!! She has come so far since I first met her. I was there on our summer vacation when she scribbled a little stick man on a magna doodle and we all thought "Hey! That actually kinda looks like a person!" And from there she has continued to impress me with her artistic achievements.

She recently won 3rd place in the state kindergarten art contest for Georgia. Every time I come to her house she makes sure that I get a little piece of paper filled with color and life, and I always make sure to post them in my cubilcle at work.

The picture to the left is her version of the Mona Lisa... Pretty great huh? Definitely happier than the original, and I think if the real Mona had a bow that big on her head, she would surely crumble under it's sheer magnitude.

If you are wondering why I am this excited (besides the fact that she is my niece) it is because when I was a kid I was a bit of a color placer on the pager myself. If I hadn't gotten into acting and improv I probably would still be drawing and animating.

I like this particular picture a lot. It makes me smile and for some reason stirs up and replinishes my hope. I won't over analyze that for fear that I'll break it and it' will be gone.

Go Emma! Keep on a-drawin' girl!

Man Crush: David Tennant

Ahh.... David Tennant. This guy knows how to take a role, make it his own and then proceed to play every line as a pure gem of comedic genius. I'm currently watching him as he was first introduced to me (before I realized he played Barty Crouch Jr. in Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire) in the new revival of BBC's Doctor Who series.

My friend Sacha Dzuba gave me an extremely hard sell into the Doctor Who world when he found out that I was a sci fi lover but that I wasn't into the new Doctor. He pressed two large stacks of DVD's on me and I watched them... liked them... almost let myself get distracted by them, until series 2 when David arrived on the scene.

If you want to see one of my favorite David Tennant/Doctor Who moments just watch the Series 2 episode titled The Christmas Invasion (here's a link http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Christmas_Invasion) and listen for "This New Hand? It's a Fightin Hand!!!"

So why is David a man crush? Well first, in case you don't know what a man crush is... UrbanDictionary.com defines it as "When a straight man has a "crush" on another man, not sexual but kind of idolizing him."

David gets my first Man Crush entry because he can play Geeky, Romantic, Enraged, Playful, Aggressive, Intelligent and egotistical all in the same 3 minutes of screen time. He can make more more out of a line of dialogue than most other actors and he can make more out of silence and a glance than most people.

I would love to be David for the shooting of just one Doctor Who episode... What a guy... What a... Man Crush.

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

300 Lost Words

A word count didn't even occur to me today when I wrote my article entitled "Good Question."  And so I find myself home after work and teaching class franticly pounding out 300+ words before I fall below my goal after only the 2nd day of this project.

My mind on the way home was focused on the premiere of the next season of my favorite tv show "LOST" which my wife and I have been patiently (and sometimes impatiently) waiting for since last year.  I don't have a whole lot of tv shows that I am really into right now and LOST has been out of my life for a while now... I was a bit worried that I would lose touch... that I wouldn't care when it finally returned... that the tension that they built up for last season wouldn't sustain me through to the new shows many months later.  I was wrong. I am incredibly jazzed. But why? Why is LOST able to bring me back from a tv coma and still have me dying to see the next episode when I normally would be cold and abandoned. The answer is "Specifics and Unanswered Questions."  The world is clear and vibrant and every time they reveal a secret truth they either make it a part of a greater secret truth or create an additional secret truth.  This is a hard balance to keep... too many secrets and you lose your audience, but reveal too many and you lose your audience's interest.

And so tomorrow night I return home to my friends Jack, Locke, Mr. Eko, Kate, Sawyer and all the rest.  Congratulations writers of LOST! You've done the impossible.  I'll be back and I want answers!!!

Ask Jim #2 - Good Question!

Today's question comes from an anonymous member of the JaCKPie community.(Goodness... everyone is so secretive!)

They write: "I hear different things about asking questions in a scene. Some people say you should never do it. Some people say it is ok... which is right? When is it ok to ask questions in a scene?"

Good Question! My answer to this is less about WHEN it is ok to ask a question and more about how to ask a good question in a scene. There are a couple of factors that affect the use of questions in scenes and if you are aware of them and how they tend to affect scenes then you should technically be able to ask questions all day long in a scene and it will be just as solid as any other scene.

In the beginning of a scene and for each line of dialogue or action on stage we are looking for information, heightening, wants and emotions. Simple questions that do not accomplish any of these 4 things when they are done at the very start of the scene and simply volly the focus, creative work and pressure back onto the other person or seem to have a right or wrong answer implied are the types of questions that I find to lack a real use to the scene... HOWEVER after the scene is established and it is a true character reaction to ask a simple question then it functions in the environment quite well...

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

Ask Jim #1 - The Non-stop talking scene partner

My very first "Ask Jim" question comes from an anonymous member of the JaCKPie community. They write "What should you do if your scene partner never stops talking? What if they wont let you say anything?! What should you do?"

Great question! Why is it such a good question for me in particular? Because I used to be a motormouth in scenes! Later on in this article I'll give some background on my history as a motormouth but for now I will roll up my sleeves and tackle the question at hand.

My first impulse in any situation where my scene partner is talking but not listening or is listening but won't allow two words in edgewise is to ask myself the question "WHY?" or more clearly "WHY is my scene partner motoring through this scene?" If I take a moment and watch/listen and I can discern the why behind their motoring then I will be able to help make my partner look brilliant and bring the scene itself to a place of balanced discovery.As everyone who takes level 1 at JaCKPie knows, our golden rule is to make our scene partner look like gold. So if my partner is talking in non-stop run-on sentences, my first job here is to make them look brilliant for doing this… If I can at the same time stop them from diatribing and get them connected, then I have done 2 jobs at the same time. But first I must be able to recognize the intent. Most times this is easy because I know and have workshopped with the scene partner in question. Sometimes I have not had that luxoury and must make an assesment on the fly...

Monday, January 28, 2008

1000 words....


Tomorrow I begin my 1000 word per day writing journey... I will need lots of love and support. If you are at student or alumni of JaCKPie and you have a question for "Ask Jim" please email me and I'll incorporate it here!

Thanks as always to everyone... wish me luck!

Saturday, January 26, 2008

Accidental Art

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I love it when art happens by accident. I love this cameraphone pic though it isn't at all what I intended to happen. It is of my parents chatting away in their kitchen, but it went all fuzzy on me (most likely because it is a *CAMERA PHONE*)

This is currently the background on my cell phone because it is both fun and a good memory...

Friday, January 25, 2008

Microblog: Back to Twitter & My first blog subscriber

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  •  Have been focusing so much on getting my blog ready that I haven't been using Twitter. Now it is time to find a balance. #


@rileymccarthy just became my first subscriber to my new blog! Hooray! I'm official! #

Magnetix competition at work...





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I asked for a set of Magnetix building "blocks" for Christmas and now my entire department is sharing in the fun. My co-worker Vickie made this sail boad which I thought was pretty cool.

Any challenges? I'll pass them along to the guys here at work...

17 Journals to 1





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Originally uploaded by Jim Karwisch


Right before I got married I started to consolidate all of our possesions which included our over abundance of books. Going through all the stacks and shelves led me to finding all of my journals from the time I was in high school through my return to Atlanta in 2001. I found there were 17 journals total of varying shapes and sizes. Now before you go thinking that I was some incredible journaler from a young age, you should know that I have a terrible habit of buying new journals and not using the whole thing. And so... there I stood staring at all of these journals that took up an entire shelf on the bookcase. I knew that only 1/10th of each was used and I estimated that they would probably condense down to just one hefty sized journal if I were to compile them. It was one of the hardest things I've ever done, but I broke the spines of all 17 journals, extracted the pages, ordered them chronologically and bound them with a big red rubber band. At that moment, something amazing happened! I started to read my journal entries again... because they were all together I could flip through years and years of notes without carrying around a giant stack of journals.

Today I went through again and was amazed at my journey and the change in my maturity and confidence over the years... I even found a list of all of the cities I visited during my 3 years on theatre tour... Sometimes just a small change can affect the usability of something you've had forever.

Vader - 12 Weeks



No we didn't get a puppy! This is a picture of a co-worker's dog that just made my day. Since I have not yet started posting improv articles as planned (that will start on Saturday) I thought I would at least post a few things that made me smile.

If you are a Star Wars fan you will appreciate that the puppy's name is Vader. They also have a dog named Chewi.

Thursday, January 24, 2008

Microblog: Simple problems

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Reading old journal entries from high school. Marveling at how simple my problems were. #

Quality v.s. Capturing the moment




I am a bit of a photo snob. I really don't like the quality of pictures that are produced on a cell phone camera... on the other hand, sometimes when you want to capture a beautiful moment in your life, you aren't within reach of your camera...For some people this would sound like a simple matter of fact. For me it is a step toward not needing to be such a perfectionist. Looking at and loving a badly lit and extremely pixelated photo and not being completely distracted by the flaws is a great thing.

Here is a moment in my life that I have captured. It isn't perfect, but exists and it will take me back to that moment just as well as a perfect picture would.

I love growth, revelations and relaxing a bit into life.

Monday, January 21, 2008

Microblog: Doctor Who screaming!

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What is Long-form improv?

From our perspective at JaCKPie,  long-form improvisation is based on the free play of imagination, solid character work and relationships.

The improvisers journey with the audience through an intellectually stimulating, emotionally accessible, and yes... often humorous experience.

Within the experience each improviser may play several different roles, characters may reappear, roles may switch, scenes may change, space and time may be manipulated, scenes may be light, funny, sad, painful, dark or all of the above.

Friday, January 18, 2008

Microblog: Twitter Blocked & rememberthemilk.com

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  • WORK JUST BLOCKED TWITTER!!! Well I guess it is perfect timing that I just set up my wordpress blog to allow me to tweet from my blog... #

  • Organizing my life with rememberthemilk.com. Using David Allen's "getting things done" from within... working well so far. #

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

Twitter Catchup for Diary


  • Slowly recovering from my discovery that Guitar Hero again eluded my grasp... 05:41 PM December 26, 2007 from web

  • Future improv team name created by accident on my Jott account... "Electrosets" 10:39 PM December 25, 2007 from web   

  • Hopes dashed... Guitar Hero III for PC i got for Christmas requires a way better system, video card and RAM than I have... Foiled again... 10:36 PM December 25, 2007 from web   

  • Guitar hero is mine! 09:12 AM December 25, 2007 from txt   

  • Totally need a rechargeable battery system for 2008. 08:17 AM December 25, 2007 from txt 

  • Our orange cat max is on a trial run at living with my inlaws. 09:33 PM December 24, 2007 from txt   

  • Inlaws christmas, playing their wii, listening to t.n.b.c. And eating gingerbread cookies. 08:28 PM December 24, 2007 from txt   

  • I heard this on the PS3 previous... awesome... to listen to at home http://tinyurl.com/2h7vna 01:23 PM December 24, 2007 from web   

  • There is something about writing with a wooden pencil that is so satisfying... 09:27 AM December 19, 2007 from web   

  • Left home without my thermos... Again. 09:08 AM December 19, 2007 from txt   

  • Day two without my computer. I am lonely and lost. I do not know what will become of me. Help. http://tinyurl.com/23ocr9 08:53 PM December 18, 2007 from Jott   

  • dinner with family, house cleaning and a full day without my computer. 10:18 PM December 16, 2007 from web   

  • lost my computer for two days but gained on demand so all is not lost. 09:19 PM December 15, 2007 from web   

  • So my computer won't boot to windows and I'm on a computer that my brother in law brought over... Now a trip to my cousin to fix my baby... 11:49 AM December 15, 2007 from web   

  • So no new 'The Office' because of the writers strike, but I can watch reruns of this show forever so BRING IT ON... 08:58 PM December 13, 2007 from web  

  • In traffic. Apparently, it hasn't rained in a couple of days and everyone in Atlanta forgot how to drive again. Bad reps(?). 06:30 PM December 13, 2007 from Jott   

  • A quote today from Riley Mccarthy "My sarcasm is occasionally as cruel as a summer spent with Mormons in show business." 11:06 AM December 13, 2007 from web   

  • I have a mountain dew... I have a stack of work. Stack of work + mountain dew = slightly smaller stack of work... Two days till Weekend! 09:41 AM December 13, 2007 from web   

  • Sacha dropped off an advent calendar for me that is in the shape of a Dalek from Doctor Who... Chocolates inside that will.. exterminate!!!! 03:58 PM December 12, 2007 from web   

  • Meeting for JaCKPie after work with Brad and Leigh. The a rehearsal with Canvas All Stars and then home... TO BED!! 03:04 PM December 12, 2007 from web   

  • Bad stomach tonight. Why i thought i could eat like a normal person i dont know. 04:21 AM December 12, 2007 from txt   

  • Man! I am totally digging jott.com. It is so cool! You can do anything with it. Sweet. http://tinyurl.com/2bydnr 06:54 PM December 11, 2007 from Jott   

  • Ohhhh yeah baby! My buddy's movie is coming in my netflix! Sahweet!!!! http://tinyurl.com/yv7n69 05:39 PM December 11, 2007 from web   

  • Back at the office with some Chinese food and a stack of work that seems taller than when I left... 12:33 PM December 11, 2007 from web   

  • Waiting for the sub chiropractor as my usual is out sick. What a demand this guy seems to have!11:30 AM December 11, 2007 from txt   

  • A buddy just turned me on to solving my Guitar Hero problem of not having a gaming system! http://tinyurl.com/yunm3u 09:04 AM December 11, 2007 from web   

  • Came in very early this morning and knocked out all the work I was behind on... Now I am starting my day fully prepared to get behind again. 08:25 AM December 11, 2007 from web  
    Sitting with my wife on the Couch... ahhh bliss... 09:10 PM December 10, 2007 from web   

  • Okay, I can Twitter using my phone and my voice. I am speaking this now. I am such a geek. http://tinyurl.com/2anof3 08:24 PM December 10, 2007 from Jott   

  • Yet again I am fooled by a sudden change in temperature and barometric pressure to think that I am getting a cold... Argh... 04:56 PM December 10, 2007 from web   

  • Oh please let me not be coming down with something! Oh please oh please! 01:18 PM December 10, 2007 from txt   

  • Trying to get my head in the game... in a non Disney's high school musical kind of way of course. 10:15 AM December 10, 2007 from web   

  • To watch from home: http://youtube.com/watch?v=... 10:14 AM December 10, 2007 from web   

  • Looking at: "Watch Kids' WB! every Saturday morning 7AM - 12PM" (http://tinyurl.com/2v6ahj) 06:02 PM December 09, 2007 from web   

  • watching the public twitter timelime. funny funny stuff. 05:50 PM December 09, 2007 from web   
    Best Buy, Michael's, Lunch and a Sonic Cherry Coke... here I come! 01:41 PM December 09, 2007 from web   

  • Looking at: "Legion of Super-Heroes - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia" (http://tinyurl.com/2qlsjl) 11:50 AM December 09, 2007 from web   

  • Does anyone know why I am still up? The cat is asleep. My wife is asleep. Even the tree is off already... why am I still up? 11:18 PM December 08, 2007 from web   

  • Laughing at: "Baby Got Book (OFFICIAL)" (http://tinyurl.com/34x87v) 09:45 PM December 08, 2007 from web   

  • Cracker barrel in kennesaw. Bring on the dumplins! 07:29 PM December 08, 2007 from txt   
    Ah... the pilot episode of the Dead Zone. Now I can really not get anything done. 04:55 PM

  • December 08, 2007 from Twittervision   
    L:30101 04:53 PM December 08, 2007 from Twittervision   

  • Oh no... now I have found http://twittermap.com/maps I am doomed. 03:18 PM December 08, 2007 from web   

  • Wrapping up a work on the weekend day... I got nowhere near enough accomplished but I just can't stay anymore... dramatic eh? 03:01 PM December 08, 2007 from web   

  • Hours 5 and 6 of working on the weekend have taught me the value of my time and how little that matters when you are this far behind. 02:33 PM December 08, 2007 from web   

  • Apparently I am missing that part of your brain that tells you "You are signing up for too many social networking sites." 01:42 PM December 08, 2007 from web   

  • Mary says we need the Christmas album - What's in that bag? by Chuck Levell (sp?) 12:15 PM December 08, 2007 from web   

  • I am trying to get into sports after 30+ years of not caring... send me help! 11:55 AM December 08, 2007 from web   

  • Listening to DaveFM's "Call to Auction." Some good music today... Nobody here at the office to critique my air guitar today... 11:53 AM December 08, 2007 from web   

  • Hour 3 of working on the weekend... A giant stack of faxes looms... My Saturday shrinks away into the ether... 11:28 AM December 08, 2007 from web   

  • I can now post to twitter from my email... If I can add posting to twitter by scratching my elbow I will be complete. 10:54 AM December 08, 2007 from TwitterMail   

  • Completed hour 2 of working on the weekend... No one has given me a cookie for doing so... I am sad... 10:35 AM December 08, 2007 from web   

  • Going in to work today. Don't worry... I won't enjoy it. 08:04 AM December 08, 2007 from web   

  • I am trying to get into sports after 30+ years of not caring... send me help! http://www.50states.com/spo... 02:32 PM December 07, 2007 from web   

  • Thinking through the lineup for our Holiday Show Dec 29th... Out of town guests and a whole lot of food... 09:41 AM December 07, 2007 from web   

  • Reading: "Escape from Cubicle Nation: Excellent reading for those paralyzed by fear of leaving their job" (http://tinyurl.com/366tzr) 07:15 AM December 07, 2007 from web   

  • Reading: "Derren Brown - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia" (http://tinyurl.com/3dmjkf) 09:31 PM December 06, 2007 from web   

  • Reading: "Cold reading - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia" (http://tinyurl.com/gj6q5) 09:25 PM December 06, 2007 from web   

  • Stumbling: : Dream: Trip to Scotland 08:48 AM December 06, 2007 from twitterfeed   
    Blogging: Music and Prickly Goo: Cold Hard Flash: Flash Animated Philosophy From South Park Cre.. http://tinyurl.com/22vkxu 12:09 AM December 06, 2007 from twitterfeed   

  • On del.icio.us: Karwisch, Germany http://tinyurl.com/23e7ah 11:16 PM December 05, 2007 from twitterfeed   

  • I am still awake. I need to be asleep. But I am still awake. Still. Awake. 11:03 PM December 05, 2007 from web   

  • Thanks @Ed_Dale for turning me on to Derren Brown. Excellent. 10:07 PM December 05, 2007 from web   

  • Finally feeling more myself. Makes the job more bearable and easier to function. Hooray! 04:33 PM December 05, 2007 from web   

  • Feeling a little better. Dreading work tomorrow. Work does not go away when you go away... 08:17 PM December 04, 2007 from web   

  • Went home ill. 05:04 PM December 04, 2007 from txt   
    One big error at work, two bottles of mountain dew, and no lunch break 01:57 PM December 04, 2007 from web   

  • Cat, milano cookies and the heroes finale! 09:12 PM December 03, 2007 from txt   

  • If you run out of peppermint tea, toss a couple of altoids into some lipton and it will taste like lipton with altoids in it. 03:46 PM December 03, 2007 from web   

  • Fighting the urge to drift into a blissful slumber on my mouse pad. 02:26 PM December 03, 2007 from web   

  • Reading Benjamin Carr's essay "Get busy dying." http://tinyurl.com/yqtmfo 11:42 AM December 03, 2007 from web   

  • My brain is preparing for 2008. It doesnt realize how much 2007 we still have left. 10:08 AM December 03, 2007 from txt   

  • Preparing for an awesome *almost winter* day! Might even have to pre-heat my car :) 07:19 AM December 03, 2007 from web   

  • A night of tree dressing, Anne of Green Gables watching and a bowl of popcorn that was supposed to go on the tree but... we eated it... 11:09 PM December 02, 2007 from web   

  • Our cats keep removing our tree skirt and drinking all the tree water! 07:31 PM December 02, 2007 from txt   

  • I was told to read the book "Bird by Bird" from Merlin Mann. Trying to find a copy. http://tinyurl.com/24xzoo 05:36 PM December 02, 2007 from web   

  • Watching "Life" on a Sunday afternoon... leftover Japanese for lunch and a full evening ahead with no plans! 01:44 PM December 02, 2007 from web   

  • Realizing that "cat" and "act" are the same in a text message... see this tweet: http://twitter.com/karwisch... 01:43 PM December 02, 2007 from web   

  • Enjoying a big breakfast, the sunday paper and a tuxedo act in my lap. 09:52 AM December 02, 2007 from txt   

  • Playing white elephant gift swap at sapparo japanese restaurant in marietta. 08:33 PM December 01, 2007 from txt   

  • Long talk, a cup me tea and a game me scrabble. 04:35 PM December 01, 2007 from txt   

  • Here's a cool video of tablet pc's Crayon Physics Deluxe http://tinyurl.com/yo6hlg 02:03 PM December 01, 2007 from web   

  • 1:22 and I am still in my pajamas. I love Saturdays! 01:23 PM December 01, 2007 from web 

  • Reading: "Twitter Guide Part #5 - Twitter Tools | Web Applications | Caroline Middlebrook" (http://tinyurl.com/2bhtc2) 09:57 AM December 01, 2007 from web   

  • Today we are decorating the tree!!! 09:46 AM December 01, 2007 from web   

  • Going to bed. Great company... good movie... popcorn and soda... A nice night to take my mind off of work... 11:15 PM November 30, 2007 from web   

  • Infamous starring toby jones. More lively than capote and funnier so far. 09:50 PM November 30, 2007 from txt   

  • Eating Dinner: A yummy dinner of pasta, cheese, sauce and ziti noodles... Yummy! 07:38 PM November 30, 2007 from Facebook   

  • going home! Finally I am done done done. Ready for a completely free weekend (except eating Japanese on Sat mmmmmmm...) 06:22 PM November 30, 2007 from web   

  • chug-a-chuga... chug-a-chuga... chug-a-chuga... 05:52 PM November 30, 2007 from web   

  • underwriting... underwriting... underwriting... underwriting... underwriting... underwriting... underwriting... 05:09 PM November 30, 2007 from web   

  • mumbling "Game called on account of Brain." 03:17 PM November 30, 2007 from web   

  • trying to keep my brain from melting and running out of my ears... 03:09 PM November 30, 2007 from web   

  • working hard (hardly working apparently doesn't get as much done.) 01:19 PM November 30, 2007 from web   

  • wanting to see SLEUTH by Anthony Shaffer... 11:02 AM November 30, 2007 from web   

  • needing new business cards... 09:37 AM November 30, 2007 from web   

  • clinging to the hope of sleeping in on Saturday... 08:43 AM November 30, 2007 from web

Wednesday, November 7, 2007

Suggestion: Create a villain...

(written stream of conciousness with no edits. please excuse grammar and typo's. based on a suggestion from the "audience")

Park benches are not the most comfortable of sitting places. To my dissapointment, young children do not run around my recliner at home so I must sacrifice my comfort for opportunity. You cannot kill a child if you cannot catch a child and you cannot catch a child if there are no children.

My eye has been on one particular child for weeks now. His pale blue eyes seem to be larger than his head and his chubby cheeks and fine blonde hair strike sharp against the backdrop of char grey trees and autumn leaves. He always wears the same tiny plaid jacket and he is easy to pick out of any crowd of tots... His mother dresses him in suspenders which he hates and he methodically removes his jacket every day, lowers the elastic straps to a dangling position before returning the jacket to his shoulders.

It is facinating to watch someone that you know you must kill... The longer you watch them... the longer you let them live... the more temptation to revel in that power of life and death exists...

He stands under the money bars and stares up. His face in a frown as he watches another child who is stronger, taller, more agile glide across the bars hand after hand in an almost effortless fashion. The face the boy makes as he glides for a moment juxtaposes itself against the displeased look of the small blonde boy. The moment frozen in time might make for a priceless piece of art, but of course no Gallery can truly hold something as pure as this moment. No picture could ever grasp the true essence of what was about to happen... of what I am about to do...

From my pocket I pull a set of photographs. I unstrap the rubber band that holds them together and flip through them... searching for the right inspiration to do what I needed to do...

The first picture helps me in no way... it is a picture of a pile of dust beside a plastic table table tent the cops use to show scale... it reads #4 and the pile shows itself to be about 6 inches high... It is too far removed from human form to cause any reaction in me at all...

The second picture does its job nicely... a group of small bodies lying in a heap... their eyes bulging out of their sockets and their twisted bodies bent in directions that bones do not go without breaking... I stare at this picture. I try to focus on the pain and anguish they felt just before they died... just before their lives were ripped from their vessels and left like a pile of rag dolls on the hardwood floor.

Quickly I flip through the series of the other 30 pictures... some piles of dust, some mangled masses... but I have already found my motivation and the rest is just involuntary movement of an absent mind...

As much as I want to jump from the bench and grab his tiny neck to squeeze with all of my might I must wait... I must be sure...

I let my emotions run wild while keeping my body in perfect stillness... I watch and wait... In the open like this I will only get one shot... I must be sure...

The young child has not moved from his position under the monkey bars... He still stands, still looks displeased as two taller children, different than their predesessor crawl across the top of the bars and then dangle their feet while trying to maintain balance... The blond boy squints in the sunlight but maintains his gaze on the happy boys on the bars...

As much as I hate to cut things too close... to test moments too far before acting, I must be sure he is the one... and that is when it happens... I can feel it... crawling across the ground and hanging low in the air I can feel the evil seeping outward... soupy acidic evil pressure pushes further until I can feel it in full... and I gain confirmation... I was right... I had finally found him... this was the boy...

I stood and moved quickly toward him and even as I moved I knew I might already be too late... I didn't think him capable of this in the open with so many people around but then it is hard to know the limitations of the most hideous horrible villain you ever knew who is also a 6 year old child...

From his tiny jacket pocket he pulled a stone... one of those perfect round skipping stones you find at the waters edge. To anyone else it would represent fun... joy... carefree days with a friend or your father skipping stones... but to him it was all he needed to destroy a life...

I was now in a sprint toward the boy hoping against hope that I would reach him before the stone left his hand and both of those boys were dead before they even fell from the monkey bars... His tiny arm cocked back... it would happen before I reached him... and so I shouted "Juuuuussttttiiiinnnnnnn!!!!"

He turned. His arm lowered. He stared at me as I ran. I saw his eyes clear now... Those are the eyes of the boy who had murdered 70 children... some he left in piles and some he burned in his father's kiln and then returned to their homes... There was my nemesis...

His face turned to slight shock... then to an almost knowing smile and his arm raised again... the stone had a new target.

(to be continued)

~Jim

Tuesday, November 6, 2007

Suggestion: Ooohh... Write a mystery!

(This entry was written stream of consciousness with no editing and was based on a suggestion from the "audience.")



It was midnight when I finally sat down at my desk in the corner where I would normally sit to knock out a few pages before sleep. The kids were tucked away and Marlo was reading in her sewing chair downstairs, quite content and in no need of my attention. With "Dunderblocks" recently completed I found myself back to brainstorming a new work.

For years the plots came easy to me and I had journals filled to the brim with ideas for my next novel with the promise of the well never running dry. It was usually just a matter of picking something promising from the tattered pages and fleshing it out over a week's worth of evenings. Now I found myself at the end of my notes... the ideas of my youth gone and no sign of the next around the bend... I cradled my head in my hands and for the first time in over 2 years I cried. Who would I be if I were not a writer? A father certainly... and a husband... a leader in our church and a mentor to an afterschool program... But what would I be for me?

"If this is not the end" I prayed quietly through my tears "then God, if it is your will, please open another door."

Several minutes of silence followed and then the sound of my study door creaking announced a tiny visitor. "Not now please Micah." I said as kindly as I could... "Daddy is crying and praying right now."

"I can't sleep" he said in a voice too cute to ignore. "Can I cry and pray too?" I tried to breathe and smile and then I wiped my face and motioned him over to sit on my lap. He crawled into place and looked up at me... his eyes squinched in what I could only assume was an attempt to cry with me. "What are we crying and praying about?"

"Daddy is scared Micah. He doesn't know what to write next and he is scared what that might mean." From the birth of my first son I swore that I would never be closed off to my children... I would always be honest and open with anything that I thought they could handle.

He bowed his head, squinched his eyes and we sat again in the silence that only this room could provide. Suddenly and with great energy and bright eyes he grabbed my shirt as if our faces were not close enough already... "OOh!" he said.

Seeing my startled response he calmed down as he was always instructed when he got hyper and he aimed and fired the thought again but with more control this time. "Ooh, write a mystery!"

I stared at him and felt a grin grow through my cheeks. "It doesn't work like that Micah. But thank you so much for helping me think."

"I think..." he persisted "That you should write a mystery. And it should be about someone who helps people find peace." And with that he hopped off my lap, turned, nodded firmly as if had just given me some tough love, and headed off toward his room. "Love you Daddy! 'night!"

"Goodnight Micah!" I laughed a little. It is hard not to when everything they say and do is that cute. I turned back to the desk and saw where my wife had laid out two fresh packs of post it notes and a sharpie marker for me. She knew my process as well as she knew my soul.

I unwrapped the first pack of post-it's and tucked the sharpie behind my ear... I did this out of habit... Out of impulse... Muscle memory doing its work... I uncapped the sharpie and on the first page I wrote "new." Pulled it free from the stack and stuck it on the wall. I stared at the pad... nothing else came... out of fear I wrote "Novel" and placed it next to its brother... I felt the tears starting to well up again... the uncertainty growing... and from a place of insecurity I wrote "mystery" on the next note... tore it free... "Help" then "Peace" then "Micah" and then I couldn't stop... "Boy" then "Detective" then "Christian" then "murder" and on and on...

I was up till 6am that morning... I couldn't stop myself... I used every post-it we had in the house and two sharpies went dry in the process...

And there it was. On my wall was another great novel begging to be worked into the page.

I made my way out of my study and heard the stirrings of life in the house... preparing for work and school... and I went to Micah's door and met him on his way to our hall bathroom... I picked him up, gave him a giant hug that I hoped said "thank you" and sent him off to wash the sleep out of his eye.

At my favorite spot on the front lawn I thanked God for being so swift in his work. Some might say it isn't possible that Micah's idea was from God. But I know that nothing is outside his reach. Nothing is too big for him. Miracles are like breathing to him, so why would an idea from a boy's lips just moments after I requested it be impossible?

I smiled and laughed and headed for bed and some much needed sleep.

~Jim